This is something I wrote back in august 2010. I was on a California highway just trying to clear my mind from some things that had happened in those days.
It's "funny" how today I feel the same way.
"Hmm" - 7/8/2010.
Thank you for disrupting my life. I'm now looking for alibis to not think of you. I was doing okay, adjusting myself slowly to not having you around. It's funny how that sounds, as if you've always been in my life. Funny how in a matter of months everything developed itself into something unique and lovely. Now can't help but to doubt it. What if it was only me? What if I overreacted to everything? What if it was only me feeling those things? Y si yo confundí la gimnasia con la magnesia? What if what I firmly believed in was all a product of my mind and it was never really there?
I now only wonder. What I need to do is move on. It can't linger in something that (real or not) is just hurting me right now. I have so many great things going on for me right now and I just can't focus on them. Instead, my mind keeps wasting time thinking about you. I can't manage myself in short distances with you...
I love you deeply and I miss you "en cantidades industriales"... But I guess it doesn't matter, you've made your choice to be with someone else and I have to respect that.
I gave up, i can't keep chasing pavements, it just leads nowhere.
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Esto lo copié íntegramente de donde lo había escrito...
Muchas cosas han cambiado pero básicamente me siento igual. Such a shame...
