Thursday, March 27, 2008

swallowed in the sea.

just give me a little chance to do it... to cross this road...
i think you don't know the effect you have on me.. i mean. you could not be better to me.. its just that this affects me in a way it shouldn't... well, not that i shouldn't, it just doesn't do me any good at this precise moments and under the current circumstances.
please.. i was doing okay as i was... don't come and screw up my progress.. my heart can only take so much. do not come and disrupt this little time of quietness i've had. you have made me unfocused again.

argh..
whatever.

ill finish this later.
i cant take this right now.
im over thinking tonight... its one of those nights.

Tuesday, March 25, 2008

GRACIAS INFINITAS Y TOTALES!


emi ya esta de vuelta conmigo! <3
silvie esta en recuperacion, pero por lo menos se pudo recuperar toda la informacion del disco duro.... ya se me quito un peso de encima... i can breathe now.

....ahora solo falta el tablazo del precio...
ahi e que ta el gancho.

Sunday, March 23, 2008

no reservations

a ti:
again with the people you see are going down and you cant do anything to stop them.
how can you be so close minded that you cant see the things that could be good to you... things that are logically correct... things that are socially accepted y hasta se espera de que sean asi...
that must not make sense in your square head... however.. im here for anything you need.. i think you are aware of that.. i hope you are aware of that...
i love you. always.

a ti:
como es que hablas de las cosas mas complidacas de la forma mas simple? como es que aun asi te compliques la existencia con esas nimiedades que ni al caso.. digo nimiedades porque no son mias, si fueran mias, tal vez fueran los vientos de las tormentas que se producen en el vaso de agua que es mi vida.. tal vez no. aunque probablemente si.
algun dia, tal vez, podria ser.. que yo sepa de las causas de tus tribulaciones.. mientras tanto me mantengo al margen, solo eso puedo hacer.

finalmente,

para ti:
pk eso se tiene que interponer?.. por que las cosas no pueden simplemente ser y ya? un mundo sin las verdades a medias y mentiras enteras es en el que necesitamos vivir.
que pena que sea todo un pensamiento utópico.

Friday, March 21, 2008

it's the end of the world as we know it and i don't feel fine

las cosas siempre se extreman.
you know when there's something you have to do but keep procrastinating it till there's a better time to do it? thats what happened when i wanted to upgrade my laptop silvie's HD.... the F* planets decided i shouldn't keep waiting till i had the money saved... there's no time better than now.. so yeah. my laptop's HD got all fucked up and decided to stop working.. how considerate, right? ... NOT!.. all my work from la universidad are there.. all my pictures.. all my music.. EVERYTHING!.
everyone keeps saying "you should've done a backup" .. fucking thank you, thats REALLY helpful in this precise moment. your empathy blows my mind right now.

yesterday was one of those days were anything could go wrong... a disturbing phone call at 7:30 am, while i was still in bed, with work at 8:30... i spilled my coffee on my bed... i got to work and my laptop was dead... my 'supportive' friends.. it was funny when i hit me that my laptop's 'episode' could cost me over 7000 pesos.. de lo que no tengo nada... porque habia decidido esperar a cambiar el HD hasta que tuviera el dinero ahorrado.. pero no... thats not good enough for the planets.
the day ended with a lovely dinner with some of my girls... that was like the only good thing of the day... awesome sushi with awesome friends! love you girls! thanks for making the day at least a bit decent.

today.. i got to sleep till 10 am.. that was okay... why would today be a sucky day too? no apparent reason right?.. RIGHT. after spending like an hour and a half in the crowded supermarket.. fui a echarle aire a una goma del carro que taba bajita... bueno.. pues.. el carro tiene la mania de que de un dia asi de la nada, la alarma dejo de funcionar.. y ahora le ha cogio con que la alrma funciona y de to.. pue jevi.. toy echando el aire... y el carro coge la alarma.. tu sabe que yo deje la llave adentor junto con mi cel en el carro verdad? con la puerta que cerre pk se me olvido que la alarma taba funcionando..... eso fue muy gracioso-.... quedarme mas de una hora en una bomba, con to los panas y un alambre dulce tratando de abrir el carro por la equinita de la puerta que taba floja...que mi mama me trancara el telefono cuando yo la llame pa decile eso... y que un motorista me gritara
"se te quedo la llave adentro mami?"
"que tu cree pendejo?"
"quiere que te lo vaya a abrir?"
"ay ssssiii!"
por lo menos me rei un chin... el pana de la gasolinera pudo abrir el seguro con el mega alambre y pude llegar a mi casa a comer y a dormir hasta las 6 de la tarde..

por lo menos.. dios no nos pone pruebas que no podamos superar..
el lunes me dan el veredicto de silvie... i so hope the 'doctor' can save all the files of the HD... i dont know what to do. i'm anxious.

en otro tema totalmente diferente.
si tu sabe que ta haciendo algo malo... que te perjudica especificamente a ti... pa que conio lo hace?...
na, e tu vida.. tu ere grande.. haz lo que te de la gana.
i love you and cant help to worry about you.. but at the end you are the one who takes the decisions of your life... i can only point out possible mistakes.

it's easy to see the things that can go workg with other's peoples lives.. but when it comes to you own, we are blind.

Tuesday, March 11, 2008

wave goodbye.

how can something that doesn't "exist", suffer a tragic death...?
something that didn't even "start", die?...
it makes no sense.. but it did... everything that was against it played the supporting rolls on that movie, on wich i was the antagonist. it appeared by itself and it started creeping up on me. it made all change in so little time. as quickly as it appeared, i decided it was time to stop.

it's now time to continue gazing at the greater picture..
it's time to move on... to "better" things.. [who says they are/can be better?]
it's time to focus on the bright colors of life.
it's now time to get what i want.. now.
it's time to wave goodbye

Friday, March 7, 2008

este mundo va.

i feel like a ton of weight has come off of my shoulders
hoy a las 5 pm entrego mi 2do parcial de creatividad publicitaria I. este trabajo tenia varias semanas carcomiendome la mente.. estoy SUPER contenta con el concepto que ideé.. ahora solo falta el veredicto de matilde :]

at last... some peace and quiet.

nothing urgent to do.
haciendo tiempo para irme del trabajo.
que bien se siente.

me estreso muy facilmente... y más aun en estos días que no dejo de tener cosas que hacer.aunque de cierta forma, soy muy impredecible.. ya que hay cosas que ni me inmutan.. y cosas que debo hacer por las que me preocupo en exceso y a la hora de hacerlas me doy cuenta de que toda la preocupación fue innecesaria.
añoro un día en que pueda levantarme a la hora que me de la gana... que no tenga nada que hacer so i can could catch up with all the tv shows i love and have neglected.

hoy me juntaré con mis amigos del colegio a despejar la mente y a hacer absolutamente nada. yei for me!

cosas que tengo pendiente:
- un día relax en la playa.
- write more
-comenzar a leer de nuevo.
- dejar de ser tan volátil en cuanto a mi humor
- catch up on grey's, men in trees and gossip girl
-post all the pictures from this and last week

PAPITOUR MANIANA!.. what i've been waiting for! <333


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disclaimer #2
i'm sorry, but i don't know what i'm doing with this.
i don't have the slightest idea of what the consequences will be with what i'm *cough*we are*cough* doing
i wish i understoood a bit more of why i do some of the things i do..

pero como dicen por ahí.. el corazón tiene razones que la razon desconoce
let's just see where it goes.