jehova made this whole joint for you.

it feels like a ton of time since my last post... and this one has been stuck in a draft for several days
a friend said to me the other day that this blog is too sad for him to read.. i created this to vent on how i feel, specially when i'm down.. que es cuando tengo tantas cosas en mi mente que necesito soltar un poco y dejar de pensar.. this shall be a different post, no bitching about life.
this past few days have been quiet... not too much has happened..

• an encounter with a ghost.. well.. two encounters actually... wich were good. One was very brief and the other one was.. hmm.. emotional.

• Marel Alemany's latest concert, wich was awesome. Grado Celsius opened for Marel, and let me tell you.. those kids blew my mind away with their talent. Kuddos to Marel and Grado Celsius for giving us such a great concert. [btw, Gina, i'm waiting for the pictures... i guess you'll post then on facebook] if you don't know them, please listen to their music!

• i spent last saturday at las dunas de baní... me dolió no haber tenido mi camara conmigo en un escenario tan.. surreal y bello.. aun asi, mi celularcito se defiende.. tira fotos bastante decentes! aqui estan algunas:

no se por que se ponen asi, si la original está rotada.

la razón por la que estuve por esos lugares de nuestro país, es que dos de mis amigos de la universidad estaban participando en el Master del Desierto (si.. yo no sé), y mi grupo mas cercano de amigos y yo fuimos a darle apoyo.
as i walked through the sand i listened to one of my favorite bands, the new radicals.. and the lyrics went through my mind they could totally relate to the moment.. it is a wonderful world and it is wonderful to be alive.
to change things up a little bit, this is a happy post..
we humans tend to bitch about all the things that make us unhappy, let's all give thanks for being alive and for being able to live in this beautiful world, specially this country that has such diverse and amazing landscapes.

right now i'm listening to drexler's cover of radiohead's high & dry... how i love this version, and the original one of course.

a un millón de años luz

from one moment to the other.. all is great and in place. peachy. next thing i know i'm crying and you're making me go through an emotional downward spiral. i'm sure you don't mean to do it. you probably don't know you do that to me. i think you actually don't know the reaction you can cause on me.
it's been a while since the last time i cried. it's good to cry, it helps you get things out.

yo ni sé nada de nada.
i hate this uncertainty. not knowing what to do or what's happening is killing me. i guess i just have to take it as it comes y punto.

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perhaps if i keep my mind positive good things will come.. right v? ill try my best even though i've been indifferent towards the future. it is imminent and i don't have a clue what to expect from it.
i've always had all these plans of what i would do with my life. it was all so clear. now i don't know what i'll do.... it all seems so unreachable. i know i just have to set my mind to it, lots of effort and dedication.. but what do you do when you don't know what you want to do?
life is happening now... gotta grab it by the horns.. gotta set my mind to find what i want... it can't be that hard...!

or can it?

no lo sé.

this describes how i feel.

under pressure.

nothing is ever good enough for you... i try to make the effort to give you what i can... but there's always something that is not enough for your standards.

a day will come when i will stop trying to be better for you..... dont wait for it, it'll come unannounced.
im tired of this.